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Taeyeon's diary.

(0-0-26):January 10th, 2009.

It's been already 9months since I became a DJ.

(0-0-35):I think I've been a celebrity for a year and a half?

Also, our SNSD's mini album began today.

(0-0-44):As time passes by, I wonder if I'm changing or not.

(0-0-50):And I wonder if I'm developing as a better person or not.

I've been thinking a lot about these things.

(0-0-57):I didn't expect some things to be this difficult and complicated

...I thought about why I was so stressed about those things.

(0-1-10):However, the answer was simple.

Because I like what I'm doing.

(0-1-16):Because I want to do it.

Unfortunately, there can be troubles when I'm happy.

(0-1-25):This happens in corporate life and when you're with new people...

(0-1-30):I know that these are part of the social life but...

(0-1-35):I have no idea what I should do...

(0-1-38):Even adults have difficult time dealing with the social life.

(0-1-45):Social life is a big burden for a twenty year old, me.

(0-1-51):It's not like we are machines, we are people.

I don't understand why people don't have flexibility and why they are so cold to each other.

(0-2-0):Moreover, they say they are the best and boasts...

I also don't understand how there are so many misunderstandings between people.

(0-2-9):Sigh..it seems my diary became dirty.

(0-2-15):I don't mind speculations but I hope people don't jump into conclusions.

(0-2-19):Please...come on! Please!

I hope I'm more honest.

(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person, whom I love.
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T_T Taeng....
"I don't mind speculations but I hope people don't jump into conclusions."

I think she may be referring to her WGM cast.

credits: translation by cathode@soshified.com/forums

[Kanki]

Oh man. This is really sad... I know she told us not to speculate, but WGM is also what came to my mind first. It'll be over soon, if that's what she's talking about. She's so down to earth and casual...doesn't act like a celebrity at all. I just hope she keeps well and talks to the girls about it, they're family and not "new" to each other after all ;p

[Anny]

ahww taengoo is too nice.
and yeah I was thinking of WGM too~
ah but I still can't believe she's gonna be in that show ><
hope everything will be ok =)
thanks for sharing!

[octi-eww!]

Wow, that girl is so stressed out. That entry is very honest but depressing.

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(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person.

What ?

Man, at least she knows why she's so worried these days now :/

[bayu90]

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(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person.

Is that why she doesn't look so good in the show? anyone has any idea what she meant?
sigh. i dun like her "husband" in WGM but i will still watch WGM still cos tae's in it.

and tae, dun worry! you are developing into a better person! you are becoming more and more leader-like now (not saying u weren't before..but you have more 'leader' feeling now)..

Gee..

[x1tzc1ndy]

:( a sad diary..i just hate seeing taengoo sad in her diaries.
honestly reading this, one can finally understand the huge burdens a celebrity her age must face...and it seems to suck. if shes referring to the wgm cast...well that doesnt sound like a pleasant cast at all then? still a bit confused.
and the end, "today i have lost an important person" :\

cheer up tae!

[star18]

HUH?? lost an important personnn???

why do i feel it's like a death news? i hope and wish it's not..

or, dont tell me her WGM husband got "divorced" due to the unhappy fans attack or what...


or even worse, did she had a break up??

oh, it made me worry for some reason...

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octieu2005, on Jan 10 2009, 10:53 AM, said:

Wow, that girl is so stressed out. That entry is very honest but depressing.



What ?

Man, at least she knows why she's so worried these days now :/

There are some speculations that she could be talking about fans >_>

[tengpy]

OMG ! Taengoo is very stressed rite now ! Although today was our girls' comeback, I felt sad when I read Taengoo's diary ! Dunno wat's wrong wif her ! >< ! Especially the last sentence " Finally I lost an important person " ! I wonder who is this person.

[belinda]

taengoo...i just got my heart broken...
gosh she seems so sad i hope she feels better
since Gee is topping all sorts of charts. soshi fighting <3

[cha!]

this is such a sad, yet very honest, diary.. T___T

Tayeon seems so stressed out.. I hope she'll feel better soon. I hope everything will be okay.

Cheer up, Taengoo!

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(0-2-15):I don't mind speculations but I hope people don't jump into conclusions.

(0-2-19):Please...come on! Please!

I hope I'm more honest.

(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person.

Is this about WGM thingy? her last sentence kinda confused me.. I feel sorry for her, though. :(

[Cute_BoA]

errr... it sounds kinda depressing for meee...
poor taeyeoonnnn... so much stress on herrr..... ><"
what does she mean with " losing someone"???
kyaaaa~~~ speculationss..~~

[ninikins]

aww she's stressed out :(
her last sentence is very confusing....
who did she lose? :(

thanks for translations
and i hope taeng feels better >_<

[mellybee]

I guess even we do tend to overlook the fact that our girls are so young and are going through the same things as normal people do, just that theirs are maximized so much more. I hope our kid leader is okay, I know she's strong and she worries a lot, I hope she knows we will always be there to support her. She is afterall an amajjing girl

[cajAzhari]

taengooo..plz keep smiling...
don't get hurt..it just trial u hv to go through as a celebrity...

we are here hardly supporting u..
soshi fighting ^^

[Keiko1812]

What is this? Why it's so sad? And why Taengoo is saying this T__T
Poor Taengoo No wonder why she seems so sad these day. Social problems.
that's one of the thing I hate to deal with the most too T__T
And who 's this important person she lost? Can't they see how precious Taengoo is?
I hate it when she got hurt. Hope she'll be smiling again soon

[Mish]

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(0-2-27):Finally, today, I have lost an important person.

I want to hug TaeYeon right now :( Taengoo, please be okay!! I hope they get to resolve it together =(
She sounds sad and stressed. Please cheer up~! I love you <3

[Shadow]

Jumping into conclusions could refer to fans and antis alike. I'm sure I don't have to go into examples for what the antis have done, but some fans have bashed other entertainers as well. For example, Gil got some negative reaction for the way he treated Tiffany and Yuri on Kko kko tour. There are just some people that assume an entertainer's behavior during a variety show or drama is an accurate indication of their personality in real life. That's not true, and it always hurts when you get wrongly accused. I'm sure Taeyeon's "husband" in WGM is going to be a victim to netizens as well. Taeyeon could also be referring to times when she meets new PDs and staff. Some of them might have been tough on her because she was an idol and thought she didn't have any talent, and Taeyeon as the newbie has to behave and prove them wrong. Either way, there's a lot of responsibility on her shoulders. She has to be careful of what she says and does because she's an entertainer, and that doesn't leave much time for informalities and casual talk. It takes a lot of time to warm up to someone for that.

I wonder who the important person is... the way she puts it, it sounds like someone died or she lost the friendship of someone who used to be close to her.

[tifa77]

Taeyeon! 힘 내! celebrity life must be really hard on her. I'm really worried about her TT.TT
I hope that she feels better and is happier. Being in the entertainment industry can be
very depressing sometimes and I hope she gets through it. People who jump to conclusions...
could it be about WGM? I'm also really worried about the last line, she lost someone
important? I wonder if she means that she lost a part of herself.....
Taeyeon! Please cheer up! We're all here to support you!

[jessrei072229]

aww..taengoo why are you so sad? T.T
and who did she lose?
i hope she'll feel better soon...
don't worry umma! your 8 daughters will be there for you! hehe.
and of course us, S♥NE! :)