Edit: Updated with new translations and footnote. Original post is in spoiler tag below.
Last Words of a SONE to SNSD
The following is a blog/diary entry by a terminally ill SONE in July 2011, just weeks before SNSD’s solo concerts.
To: Girls’ Generation
You will probably never know who I am.. And you will probably never be able to read this.. ^^ But there’s someone who always diligently reposts my words so perhaps there is a chance.
I first saw you… September 2007… such a long time ago, right? I bet you guys must also cringe at how you were back then… Up until then, I had never been a fan of anything… So how did I end up liking you so much?
I became addicted to cigarettes despite having been in ill-health and I came to like you guys so much that I began to regret this, When the first SONE fanclub membership was open… I wondered what the point of going that far would be. To this day, I regret not joining… and last year, I could not because I came down with a sudden illness… I regret so much that I couldn’t be more active in supporting you. I realised too late how amazing it is to hang out with people, the SONE, who loved you and thought dearly of you as much as I did… And 2008, when joy became horror… I had nobody to console or to be consoled by But I stoically waited for you. And when it passed… and I saw the teaser for ‘Gee’ I cried silently.
Thank you.. Thank you so much.. Thank you for returning to our side.. But as you began your activities and I came to see you more often… I began to forget to take care of my own body..
This would have been the first, and last, solo concert that I could have attended.. I’m sorry.. sorry that I don’t even have the strength to attend them now.
From the beginning to the end… I love you all… I wanted to see you… I have never said “Right now, it’s Girls’ Generation” to you… And so from now on, as long as my eyes are open and I still breathe, I will keep regretting…
I am not sad that I may have to go to America… You guys are really famous now… no matter where I go, I can still hear news about you.
To you… I am just one of the hundreds of thousands of SONE… In a concert arena, I am just one of the hundreds of SONE chanting for you… On your birthday, I’m just one of the the hundreds of SONE writing letters to you…
Despite all that, I still like it all… Because I feel your love… I feel myself thinking so dearly of you, loving you… Have I ever been a fan of anything this much in my life? In the precious little time I have left, will I stop being this much of a fan ? I don’t think so.
You know, even if I’m just one of Hundreds of thousands… hundreds… I don’t mind. SONE who say “I love you all forever”… These really are the amazing people… I don’t know if anyone else will see me like this, too… But however I appear… but SNSD! You… all you need to know is this: No matter where you are, no mater what you do… We will be cheering you on. Congratulations on your second solo concert… and I hope that you will stay healthy this year, too. From, a SONE among hundreds of thousands
This person successfully got the tickets to the concert, but was unable to attend. This was because they had to go to America on July 23rd for a last-chance medical treatment, with the SONE saying that this may be the end of the road. We have not heard from them since.
I have been asked to spread this as wide as possible. K-SONE are doing their part and spreading this post… so that SNSD can read the final words of a person who loved them so dearly and fulfill the dying wishes of a fellow SONE.
Translated and written by oniontaker @soshified.com
Spoiler
Was recently reading stuff on the net and came across the translated version of a diary of a sone who recently passed away and was quite touched, teared up a couple of times, thought it might be good to share my thoughts on it here~~really made me tear up...reminded me what being sone is about...supporting them, and cheering them on, even if you cant be actually there, laughin and crying with the girls...lets keep our luv for the girls strong (another one of the hundred thousand sones our there, supporting in my ownw way) ^^ heres the trans---
[Trans] 'A SONE's last diary' -- By a sone who just passed away some time ago.
To. SNSD. Perhaps you all will never know me in my entire life.. And perhaps the day you all will be reading this will never come.. ^^ But because there are people consistently reblogging my post, there may be some day when you will see this.
When I first saw you.. September 2007.. It was really long time ago, right? When I think of then, you all weren’t so popular back then were you? Until then, I had never been a fan of anyone… But how, did I actually fall in love with you all like this?
Since young my body was weak but I was still addicted to things like smoking, the sense of regret was so much, as much as how I started to like you. When they started recruiting Sone for the first time.. I told myself, is there a need for me to do it to such an extent. But until today, I’m still regretful of it.. Because I found out that I’m diagnosed with disease last year… I was never this regretful.. Regretful of how I cannot be actively following you all, regretful of how I cannot be like other Sones, who like you and cherish you as much as me.. Just because I knew it too late.. Then in 2008, when sorrow and joy met... I waited for you all silently, even though we cannot do anything for each other. Days passed like this.. Until I saw the Gee teaser, my tears flowed, without a word.
I’m grateful.. Really grateful.. Grateful that you came back to our side again. But because I was wanted to see you all so much during activities, and wanted to keep updated to you all so much.. I neglected my body and health…
Then it was the first time, and the last time, I saw you all at the concert.. But I’m sorry that the memories faded, just like how I’m fading away right now..
From the start until now, my love for you all is really strong.. I missed you.. I’ve never said “Right now it’s Girls’ Generation” to you all before… I will be regretful every single day, when my eyes are still open, still breathing, and still alive..
Yet I don’t regret it when I say I’m going to America.. Because you all became so popular… I can hear news about you anywhere I go.. Being one of the hundreds of people screaming towards you in the concert hall.. Being one of the hundreds of people writing letters to you on your birthdays..
Even though it’s like this, I’m still happy. For I can feel the love you all are giving us.. For I myself can feel how much I cherish and love you all.. Have I ever been so crazy as a fan before? Can I ever be so crazy as a fan again for the rest of my limited number of days? I definitely won’t…
I mean.. Even if I’m just one among the few hundred thousand people.. I won’t mind.. Because I’m among one of the great sones who always say that we love you.. Although I don’t know if I will be like this in someone’s eyes.. In any case... SNSD! For you all.. Knowing this is enough.. We will.. always be supporting you all no matter where you are at, whatever you do.. Congratulations for your 2nd tour… This year, I also pray that you all will be healthy and will not fall sick.
One among the hundred thousand sones..
translated by: imwhywhy@twitter
Edited by cedge, 13 August 2011 - 07:33 AM. New translations
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I've added the credit and will be moving this to the TG~
Thank you so much for sharing it here I´m glad that you did it . I think this is our responsibilty to share it here. Maybe one day if one of the girls lurk around this thread /forum, they can see it. (I really hope they can see it. This deserves to be seen) . Rest in Peace!!!
Edited by always_yoona_angel, 13 August 2011 - 06:08 AM.
Truly a hardcore fan even till death =') My friend, you have my prayers and I wish you find happiness in the afterlife. Bless and watch over the girls from above, right now and forever. I'm sure the girls will acknowledge you
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The greatest lover will always be the ones who have been hurt countless of times. It is because of going through such pain that the wish to ensure that others do not go through the same amount of pain is stronger than ever thus the limitless love poured out.
Thanks for the translation..
I'm so sorry to hear that..
I cry when i read the diary..
So touching..
SNSD will proud to have SONE like him..
Let's pray for him SONE!
May he rest in peace there
Wow. This is so touching. I almost cry.
SONES, read this while playing Complete. This is really touching.
May you rest in peace fellow Sone. I hope the girls can read his/her story.
Gives me goosebumps reading it. I wish he had a longer life so he can cheer for the girls for a longer time.
This really made me cry. May his soul rest in peace. What a great SONE
#lifeofasone
Omg :'( Sigh, I hope that the girls will bump around the forums and bump into this specific one. Why? Because he is a die hard sone. A true fan. I guess the girls was his role model, and literally his inspiration to keep on living. :'( I hope he rests in peace. <3
This is really heart-breaking. You can feel every word he or she wrote this, his / her love towards to our girls touched our hearts.
We may not know him / her but.. he / she is like us too. He / She is a SONE, he / she is a true SONE.
The impact of his / her love was all in here, in this diary. I just hope that one day, the girls will read this, he / she will probably be glad if that will happen.
Thanks so much for sharing this with us...it's very touching and so sad even his time was limited but he still spent it to love them...T.T as a fellow sone i can just pray for him to rest in peace...
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지금은 소녀시대 앞으로도 소녀시대 영원히 소녀시대 As a Sone+Taeganger+Yurisistable I'll always support and love the girls forever Forever9 (Taeyeon Jessica Tiffany Sunny Yuri Hyoyeon Seohyunie Sooyoungie wa Yoona)
This is really touching.A Sones love towards SNSD.I really hope the girls will know about this.
Not hoping the girls will be sad but for them to know how much he love SNSD.That is the least he can get.
RIP fellow Sones.I hope he is in heaven watching over the girls.
It breaks my heart even more whenever a fellow sone of ours dies or died.
I hope you may rest in peace Mister or Miss.
Well try to Fulfill your wish to send this so our SNSD
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As a Yurisistable,I promise to love my Smiling Black Pearl, To not be ashamed by my amazing body, To Party on Fridays like no one is watching, And to show everyone Yuri's Inner Smiling HEART
this is very sad and yet inspiring, don't you think? I hope the girls get to read this and know how much we love and support them and how much they have brought happiness to our lives just by being them.